Nenek had passed away. Monday, 8thNovember 2010. 9.25am Im still sleeping Siti called me. Said that "kitrong semua nak balik kampung. nenek meninggal dunia." And aku still mamai But i do beristighfar and mengucapkan kalimah inalillahiwainnalillahirajiun So i said im going back to kl tomorrow sigh Hoping that they will wait for me Impossible lah kan And Siti cakap, "ye,itu lain cite kay. sekarang kitorang nk balik kg dulu. k u, jangan bersedeh eh.k bye" and i said okay then i closed my eyes fell asleep for a minute then thinking and i cried all over my roomate having paper today so i cried sekuat hati then stop and menangis lagi sekian lama, around 11 somthing, ayah called he said, tomorrow i have to go back to home by my own. either by comuter or taxi. duit dah masuk. kunci ade kat makcikMah (jiran depan rumah) So i was like okay (sebak) Then ayah tanya,aku nak balik kampung ke tak Oh well of course lah aku nak kan Kenduri arwah will be 3 hari 3 malam Then ayah cakap, kalau camtu, pegi beli and naik bus kat Seksyen 17. And i said okay too. Im thinking whether nak amek taxi or naik bus to kl central then naik train or terus amek bus pegi balik kampung dari lcct. hard decision huh so i called ayah how if aku amek bus dari lcct je terus, turun kat teluk intan no need to balik rumah then nak kene pegi sek 17, tempat yang aku jarang pergi a bit scary u know and ayah said. okay.lagi better kalau dapat balik kampung terus mcm tu So tomorrow, after arrive kat LCCT will direct beli ticket pergi teluk intan So akan sampai kampung malam lah dah tanye Sabaruddin habes2 dah tadi Thank You Saba for the information Harap, tomrrow, weather will be good and flight tak delay Have a safe journey Naimah

*Laptop rosak. cannot detect wireless. its bullshit u know. im so stress. with the things happened around me. and with the people too. i just hope my friend will be beside me. calm me. stay with me. But then.. where are they? And today should be my last day hanging around with them. having my last conversation with them. sigh. i said to them, want to having dinner with them. but then. they forgot me. they went to kfc already. its painful u know. im hurt. im so pissed off. and i ve to go on9 outside (cybercafe)...hmmht its 930pm..i havent eat yet. im so merajuk with them. all i wanna do, just to be alone... before 10pm, im gonna off9 and get my ass out of here. well i havent done with my packing yet.

"Moga roh nenek dicucuri rahmat-Nya"